Quite Frankly...........

Hey, so I'm going to admit something. 

I indulge in home enema's!!! 

Oooh! such a thing to admit to but I believe your bowels are like your life; you've got to clear out  the crap in order to keep a free and clear mind.

Hello no one!!!

It has been a while.  I lost heart and interest in this Blogging business.  Plus time was an issue, but I have been twitching to start tapping the keys again, giving off and generally just saying what I feel I should not say in person.

A Rant about keeping house!

Hands up if you ever feel at a loss for what to do?

My hand is reaching high up to the sky!

Sometimes it is difficult to keep a positive and motivated disposition regarding "keeping house"!
Lost in a mound of laundry, dishes, toys, everyday clutter and mail needing sorted.
The working day begins when my children wake, it ends usually about..........  well when I got to bed!  I am not very organized and neither do I have a strict daily routine (well this is how it feels to me).
I find myself very often lost in the daily cycle of "house keeping", this is my full-time job.  I don't have regular "me time" for relaxation or self pampering (I have only just begun to on a semi-regular basis to apply tan which makes me feel good about my body and it's naked appearance).

Do a lot of  "house keepers" feel this way?
I'm sure they do, yet it is so easy to allow yourself to imagine you are alone in feeling this way.

Lovely neighbours!!!

I have neighbours who think its ok to let their dog's out in the court we live in to crap everywhere!  Outside my house and every other house but theirs!
They must think that we are all blind to their crapping dogs, and they would deny it is their dogs doing it!  Sadly they are the type of family you couldn't talk to about the problem as they would probably slash you car tyres or put dog crap right at your front door.  This family occupies not 1 house but 3 houses in a court of 14 and has 5 dogs between them.  These are the people I live amongst.  I feel like my family and me don't belong here!!  Moral and social standards are gutter low!

Knowing you

Never assume that you know a person.  You may think that you know them but then caught off guard by this assuming you find yourself confused and hurt!

House work

House work/running your home.  How many people struggle with this task?

I myself have peaks and and dips.  Everyone always has clean clothes and underwear but I can't help but feel overwhelmed by clutter, laundry, washing up and paperwork.
With paper work: what to shred of file away.  How many of you have though "I'll shred that" only to find in a week or month or so you should have kept it!

Fear

Rejection.

It is such an immense fear, one that we all have.  I don't believe you if you say you do not fear rejection.
It is such a damaging, destructive feeling/emotion, if you let it rule you.

My life was ruled by fear, fear of rejection amongst other things.  It was a pressurised container of a life.  So much fear, the fear of life itself outside of what I was experiencing and knew.

Liberation.

Denying your fear is not the way to go.  If you deny something you cannot own it.  You've got to own your feelings, they don't belong to anyone else.  Accept the fear is yours, hold it, look straight at it. Know it.  Understanding something makes it less "scary".

Hold it.
Own it.
Know it.
Say "Not today".