Show me the.........

Money. 

More going out than coming in!!
I am tempted at times to live in the world of HP (hired purchase) and loans from the likes of The Money Shop etc.
I know people who do live this way and they seem to manage it all very well.  Though, as tempting as this idea is at times I really don't think I could sleep easy at night, the thought of all I would owe hanging over my head like a grey cloud blocking my sun!

It seems to be our culture now, and a very acceptable one at that to live beyond our means in all ways.  So many people are living a life they can barely afford or cannot afford but juggle it all on the surface very well.

A society of consumerism, pay not matching the cost of living and taxes on practically everything has fed the giants of greed and money lenders.

Football Thoughts

Football players; over rated and over paid.

The game itself may bring people together (or give them a reason to knock the crap out of each other), give people an interest and so on but I would say is it not immoral that British Premiership football players get paid in excess of  £150,000.00 + a week?
A lot of the fans following the teams would never even see that amount of money in their lifetime!
The amount football players are allowed to get paid is wrong!  Cap it at £50,000.00 a week for goodness sake.  No one person in the world could possibly need any more than that.  There are people in the world with nothing, starving because they cannot afford to feed themselves, and I'm not talking third world countries here.

A ramble about me

Do you ever look in the mirror and not recognise the person looking back at you?  Feeling the need to do a double take!

"Oh my goodness!  Who is this looking back at me?  Is this me?  Is this how I look?"

My  face and its features aren't the way I imagine them to be. I'm just doing my thing day to day thing and I don't look the way I imagine in my head I look.
I am not 18-21 anymore, that is not me.  Yet for some reason that is the image of my face that I have in my mind!
I am wearing well so far, in my 31st year of living in this body.  Its been through some pretty rough times and has the scars to show for it but it is still here, working away for me.  I wish I had taken better care of it when I was younger and I would like to do so now!
I exercise, I don't drink enough water, drink too much coffee and smoke about 5 roll-ups a day!

I am a secret smoker, only a select number of people know I smoke!

Why?

Because I am ashamed of it, it is dirty and smelly but (yes, but) I do enjoy it at night time when the children are in bed!  I only started smoking when I was 21 as a social/stress induced thing. My other half had no idea, he was not part of the select at the time.
 I stopped when pregnant.  Then started again about 2 years ago!
I have gone with out for days and on occasion weeks but what can I say, I enjoy chilaxing of an evening with my roll-up.

To Live or Survive, that is the question!

Never mind living; just survive.
That may as well be what the government tell the working and lower classes.
The poor need to stay poor for the rich to stay rich.  So is our civilised social structure, every one must have a role and stick to it as much as possible for things to work the way they should, according to the upper ruling classes.  The masses seem to not matter; manipulated by the verbal, mind numbing diarrhoeal pushed on us by the wealthy in power.
Think or sleepwalk!
So what if parents have to chose between feeding their family or heating their homes, searching down the back of the sofa to gather enough change to buy a two litre carton of milk or a loaf of bread!

Parents are God?

If you have grown up in a somewhat manic house of issues and  no firm boundaries does it make it harder for you as an adult?
As an only child growing up with parents who have issues which have not been addressed, "dealt with" or resolved.  Is it more likely that the issues and baggage being carried by the parents will be passed on to the only child and make their transition into adulthood a more difficult one?
Mother is "God" in the eyes of a child.  Is this mother "God" one of unconditional love,care and compassion or a "God" to be feared and provoke anxiety?
This is the choice of the individual mother.

No one of us is with out issues or baggage of some sort but as we enter parenthood/motherhood we must make concious decisions and remember the young lives we are impacting on and helping to form.

Simple life

Do you sometimes ever wish your mind worked on a different level?
I do.  I would really like to experience a simpler level of thinking.  Have you ever known or known of someone who, you would pass as "simple" for want of a better word and just thought of them as stupid or lacking?  Well I have done that very thing but today I have been thinking about it and they seem quite happy and content in their world.  Ah, their world may be narrow and restricted in terms of language and life goals but they do seem happy.
"Ignorance is bliss"?